The Relief…
Bringing clarity to an overwhelmed mind in business and in life…
It was all my choice just as it is all your choice. The choice to make the right choice versus the good or feel-good choice. To be honest life for the past couple of weeks has been feeling draining. After my morning workouts all I wanted to do was take a 20-30 minute nap. It was hard to find the words to say to keep engaged in any conversation. Which, was kind of hard to deal with because in business development that is all I do all day long, talk, talk, talk, and talk some more. Everything in life, everything in business was draining to me and as much as I tried to fake it I couldn’t fake it with myself. I needed relief…
As I longed for relief I turned to praise and worship music to uplift my spirits. As I longed for relief I turned to My God, My Yah to uplift my spirts. But day after day I was longing for relief and all I was getting was more drained. It got to the point I was drained of hearing me pray, of hearing me talk. I was at the point where I had no more words to say, because all I could do was sigh. The sighs weren’t sighs of defeat as I was just drained from the inside out mentally and physically. I still performed my duties and performed them with a smile on my face, but that didn’t neglect the relief I was deeply longing for. I needed relief…
It was easy to meet with clients and help coach and consult them through their own uphill battles into victory. But as for me all I wanted was to experience the same relief my clients were experiencing. As crazy as that might all sound, I was more focused on my clients and seeing them win that I failed to neglect that I too needed some relief. As I saw my client begin to manage their life the right way it finally clicked in my mind. As much as I was telling others to manage the things that come into their ears and out their mouths, I was failing to listen to what I was saying. I was mismanaging areas in my life that began to suck all the life out of me. As much as I longed for relief and was so focused on doing, I failed to focus on what I was allowing into my ears and out of my mouth. I needed relief…
No matter how much I prayed to my Yah, no matter how many hours I read His word and worshipped His name it was still not enough. It wasn’t enough because I was not allowing it to be enough. I wanted this amazing transformation of relief that when I let out a sigh, I would see all the negative and feel good thoughts and ideas escape my body. Finally bringing me the relief I needed, but that wasn’t the case. No matter how much I fasted from the tv I was still longing for this relief that seemed to be everywhere except in my house. The relief I was longing for was right in my hands the whole time. I needed relief.
I needed relief, I needed to adjust my management. The relief I was longing for had nothing to do with how many clients I led to their victory or what I knew. The relief I needed had nothing to do with how many times I called out to My God, My Yah. My relief I needed had nothing to do with how many times I could listen to the perfect worship song. The relief I needed had everything to do with management. I was mismanaging my life I wasn’t putting into practice the right mindset to consistently have. I was going through the motions with no clear intentions on what I was doing, because I was doing just to be doing. I knew everything that needed to be done, I knew everything that should be done. But until I consistently did what was needed with the right intentions in mind I was just doing. It was all so draining until my mind shifted to the right tune. I needed to manage my intentions so that my doing was doing with a purpose.
“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:7)
