The Oasis…
Everything that I was working hard towards was out of selfishness to bring me back to life. I wasn’t planting any right seeds as all I was doing was planting seeds of selfishness, and I was reaping my reward. See, every step we take with faith is like us planting a seed wherever we go, and when it’s time to reap the reward(s) it comes at the perfect time.
Recently I wrote about distractions and how they can be the diss track to the traction or progress we have made. I can be honest with myself and say that I was finding myself being distracted and it was caused by me. But another thing that happened and I have to confess is that I started to lose some faith, I started to doubt myself. I know that I know how to write and can write, but I started to doubt my mind. I started to doubt that I could access that part of my mind again as in the past when words were just flowing freely out of my mouth like a river. The self-doubt began its internal destruction process as my faith began to fade as I lost focus.
I was trying everything to get my writing back to where it was before. I was trying to take myself back into the past to revisit any steps I took to get the writing flowing. I began to notice that when I was taking these trips back to memory lane, I was also revisiting interactions throughout that day. Yea, you know the moment when someone cut you off, maybe got your coffee order wrong, or the light made you late to work…Again. In reality who would ever want to revisit any memories that cause anger and frustration. I know I wouldn’t, but I did, and my traction was thrown off, my faith was diminishing. I was so thirsty for that creative river to flow out of me again, but it was dry. My steps were no longer of complete faith, so there was no traction or effective progress being made. Faith…
Recently I started watching a tv series Wild Israel and during a particular episode it was focusing on this oasis in the desert by the Dead Sea. I was immediately intrigued because this desert brought tropical life to live among the desert life, and it was beautiful to see. But the water source for this oasis was what really hooked me in. The Lord reveals things to us in ways he knows we would receive the message the best, and He knew exactly what he was doing. This Oasis Einot Tzukim is an oasis of faith as it is fed from the rivers flowing from the Judean Mountain. The water that finally reaches Einot Tzukim is from rain that fell on the Judean Mountains a couple of years previous. This oasis Einot Tzukim is one of faith as it stands firm still giving life, not focused on receiving life. The oasis gives out its life to all living things knowing that as long as it keeps giving and doesn’t become like its neighbor the Dead Sea, life will be given to it.
We might be in the desert surrounded by dust making the mistake by not realizing that within us is a river of life waiting to bring life to everything around it. It takes faith, because faith keeps us focused on giving out life instead of our wants/needs. As we take a step of faith planting a seed along our journeys and working focused on the We not Me is providing water to the dry ground that will provide nutrients to our seed. We just have to maintain our faith along the journey and allow the law of growth to take place. Patience…
