…Break…
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The break You need isn’t always the break You have desired…
The break I needed wasn’t the break I desired at all. It wasn’t even close to what I had played out in my head. I was at a crossroads with this so-called career of mine and wanted something different. I wanted a change from stagnation, a change of industry, just an overall change. I needed a break and was on the search for my next Big Break from this stagnation. The world around me at that time was a stagnate world of nothingness. The only constant change was the change of audience just to witness yet another day full of nothingness. I needed a break so bad that I was slowly breaking myself down to nothingness. Just a brief spark from any direction would provide some form of relief and maybe just the break I was looking for.
As this desire for a break began to break me further down to nothing, the more worries I ran into. The more worries that overcame my life the more of a break I desired. How am I to meet this month’s quota when I don’t even know how I can even get out of bed? How did I get broken down to this level of nothingness? My brokenness within broke me to a point that I have never experienced before. I desired for a break from this stagnation. Yahuah (God), heard me but His will was for me to first be broken before anything could be the next so-called “Big Break”. The stagnate world that was surrounding me and pushing me towards my breaking point was the World I allowed. I wanted change from this stagnate world in so much that I finally let go. My desire was to find My next Big Break in another industry and maybe with a new team. I was on a journey to find My next Big Break not realizing I was living in the next Big Break. The Breaking of this stagnate world of nothingness and allowing Yahuah, My God, to fill it with His will.
The break I desired didn’t match the break He intended for me. So many prayers where I have said, “Father I want to do your will…”. But if He allowed me to see His will, I probably would have declined those opportunities. It’s not the next Big Break He desired for me but the Breaking of Myself from those desires. I wasn’t made to seek out ways to meet monthly quotas. He says, first seek His Kingdom and Righteousness and all things will be added.
“But seek ye first the Kingdom of Yah (God), and His Righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Matthew 6:33)
I was made to seek Him first and with that He will add the things that are needed. When we need the resources to meet our next quota or whatever need He will provide it. I needed a break, I needed a change, and all that was needed was a change of thought. I wasn’t to seek the worries of this world but in all things give Him Thanks. I placed myself in a stagnate world of nothingness until I changed my focus back to Yahuah, My God’s focus. Just because I was in a rut doesn’t mean He was going to give me the next Easy Big Break and Break me Free from the “trial or tribulation”. No matter how many times I change industries and teams the true Big Break will always be there until I was ready to be broken from within.
My desire was leading me to the same repeated destination with yet another new background, a stagnate world of nothingness. His will was just simply to change my thoughts back to His thoughts…
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what Yah’s (God’s) will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will.” (Romans 12:2)
