I can’t move on until…

I couldn’t move on, I was stuck, either I address it soon or allow it to paralyze me. I had this one area, this thought floating around my head for a few days. I knew why it was there but to be honest I didn’t want to deal with It. I didn’t want to go back to that place, which is why I buried It, like I did most problems. Well, it was time to just face this thing head on and get it over with. I can’t move on until…

Last time I had this feeling and dealt with It head on I did it alone. There was no one I put down as my accountability partner as I went into this battle solo. I put God, family, and friends all to the back because I had this. That wrong choice I made on my own almost lead me to taking my life. This time around I wasn’t going to allow myself to start off on the wrong path down a very dark hole. This time I wasn’t going to ask God for guidance, I was asking God to be with me by my side as we go through this together. By making that choice it led to two good friends of mine reaching out to me without them having any knowledge I was dealing with something at the time. I can’t move on until I am honest with myself and make the right choice to deal with this matter the right way.

I couldn’t move forward with a clear mind with my present work until I dealt with my past work the right way. For a few days I was keeping myself from moving forward the right way because I didn’t want to deal with an area the right way. I buried this thing hoping It wouldn’t re-surface, thinking if I turned things around the right way, I will be alright. This time around I was able to bury this thing for about 2yrs, Freedom. Out of nowhere It came at me full force pulling the rug right up from under me. It was back, but this time I was prepared because I made the right choice to do things the right way. We went to battle but this time I wasn’t alone. This time I was going to be victorious, Right Mind, Right Words, Right Actions. Now I can move on.

I got to a point where I was getting stuck, and until I dealt with It the right way, I was to remain stuck. I am learning that as I am aligning my life the right way there are areas in my life that I haven’t dealt with the right way. Until I deal with whatever areas they are the right way they will be a hinderance to me. I had to make the right choice in my mind to speak the right words to perform the right actions to keep my life in right alignment.