Goodness and Strength…
As a child we are innocent in thinking of the ways of life. Life is good as we innocently maneuver through it building our strength through goodness. As an adult my strength came from my own understanding as my goodness faded. Right when I felt I had a grip on life it slipped right out of my hands. Sometimes I didn’t know where my strength went. Over the past years it became frustrating. Even though I knew it was negative thinking it still was there. I might not want to claim it for myself, but I will acknowledge that negative thinking was present. Slowly eating away at my goodness, at my strength.
The more and more I allowed for the negative thinking to overcome my thought process the more slowly it ate away at my goodness, at my strength. I started to become bottled up ready to defend this honor that suddenly became over me. I was ready at the drop of a hat to protect mine and everything that I claimed to be mine. For some reason the more negative thoughts I allowed in the more I was in defensive mode. I was beginning to lose myself; I was beginning to become unrecognizable. My goodness, my kind heart, my strength, the right character was losing its strength.
I knew I had moments when I could build up a strong moment. These moments that I feel like the whole me the real me was still present. These glorious moments of my strength, my goodness shining in all its glory. Moments of pure love being displayed. But it was just that a moment, but I wanted it to last longer. I wanted it to last forever. I wanted my goodness to become my permanent strength. I want…I want…I want…I wanted a different choice. I had the power to make a different choice, but until I got out of my routine. Until I got from under my own strength, my own understanding things might remain the same. My goodness, my kind heart, my strength, the right character was a choice away. A choice in gaining back my Goodness and my Strength. For my strength comes from my goodness.
“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16)
